I’m now 12 hours away from leaving for hospital and the nerves are setting in, big time! I know tomorrow won’t be nice or pain free but it’s going to be the two week period in between the testicle being removed and the biopsy result which I think I’m fearing more.
So far I have probably had 30+ men who have been where I am now offering me words of comfort and advice which has been greatly reassuring but one lady in particular has given me hope, as her son was told he had testicular cancer but when they biopsied it turned out to be benign. O.k so to be fair, her son is the only one out of over 30 who have been diagnosed but I can’t help but cling to the thought that this could all be nothing.
The surgeons and Macmillan nurse have made it clear that fatherhood will not be ruled out through tomorrows operation but from what I’ve read, the chemo afterwards is a different matter. The words ‘sperm banking’ keeps coming up, (bad choice of words I know) but this isn’t giving me a lot of reassurance!!
The real question that strikes fear in me the most is, has it spread? If so what then?
Like I said yesterday, I can and will be this but it doesn’t stop the mind from thinking and fearing.
Anyone, must go, bags to pack………
Will update as soon as possible, should be day surgery but who knows?