I haven’t been here blogging for a couple of days as things have gotten somewhat on top of me. My first night back home was a very strange one. I Was very uncomfortable and tired and fell asleep about 11p.m but was woken back up by the pain at 2:23a.m, I took my painkillers but failed to get back to sleep until just after 6am yesterday morning. I woke back up at about 11 a.m and again woke up very sore and very low.
I’ve been on antidepressants since December 2006 and have been going through ups and downs ever since which has amazed me how strong I have stayed through this latest chapter, but yesterday this all changed. I wasn’t absolutely beside myself but things had definatly caught up with me. The tears were on and off for some time until I fell asleep again. I woke up about 5pm and was a lot calmer but sadly last night was pretty much the same, I was in bed by 10:30 and was still awake at 5!
The only positive from this is I’ve had time to check out male cancer charities.
For example, look at this T-shirt
Available along with many more witty items from http://store.ballstocancer.co.uk/index.php/
I’ve also been enquiring with Orchid Cancer http://www.orchid-cancer.org.uk/ to see if I can help out with either of these charities when I’m better.
I’m already wearing my Orchid Cancer wrist band and badges,
I have now got my CT scan for next Tuesday morning to see if the cancer has spread and between all the different specialist it looks as if the following Tuesday I will know once and for all what I’m dealing with!